Homecoming

I should have had faith
I should have taken a chance
Should've been myself
I should have laughed

I should have risked something
I should have kissed you
I should have told you
I should have let you know

Instead I fell and fell
And fell into the loneliness
I fell and fell and fell
Into the loneliness
I know so well

I could hear your laughter
I could see your breath
I could taste the winter
I could feel my heart race

Do you think that we could fall And fall into each other's arms
Just fall and fall and fall
Into each other's arms?
Who would it harm?

There were all these voices in my head
And they said he won't so don't even try
Then listed all the reasons why

Snow was on the ground
You were in my reach
Walking there beside me
I should have turned and smiled

Instead I fell and fell
And fell into the loneliness
I fell and fell and fell
Into the loneliness
I fell and fell and fell and fell
I fell and fell and fell and fell

I should have had faith
I should have taken a chance
Should've been myself
I should have laughed

Instead I fell and fell
And fell into the loneliness
I fell and fell and fell
Into the loneliness
I fell and fell and fell and fell
I fell and fell and fell and fell

there's a hole in the fence
and I can see Jodi Foster
running faster than
a monster

there's a hole in the fence
and I can see the whole neighborhood
wondering where the hell we are

there's a hole in my life
that I spent in Walla Walla
wondering why
I had a hole in my life

there's a hole in your brother
cause you shot him
guess you'll make the six o'clock news
and get exclusive coverage
from forty-five networks

I don't care much for people
and you're people

there's a hole in my life
am I supposed to figure it out
there's a hole in my life
am I supposed to fill it with drugs
and there's a hole in my head
my head

I don't care much for people
and you're people

I didn't come this far
for you to make this hard for me.
And now you want to ask me "how"?

It's like -
How does your heart beat,
why do you breathe?
How does your heart beat,
and why do you breathe?

Why did you come here?
You weren't invited
and you're on the outside -
stay on the outside.
And now you want to ask me "why"?

It's like -
How does your heart beat,
and how do you cry?
How does your heart beat?

And there are some things that I like to figure out.
There are some things that I can do without -
You and, your letters are gone forever.

You and the people,
they were never friends,
never friends,
never friends.

With all the things that you could be,
you never could learn how to be me.
And now you want to ask me "how"?

It's like -
How does your heart beat,
why do you breathe?
How does you heart beat,
Why do you breathe?
How do you breathe?

Well I don't wanna be President
Superman or Clark Kent
I don't wanna walk 'round in their shoes

'Cause I don't know who's side I'm on
I don't know my right from wrong
I don't know where I'm going to
I don't know about you

I'll be the rain falling on your fire escape
And I may not be the man you want me to
I can be myself, how 'bout you?

I don't wanna make you mad
I don't wanna meet your dad
I don't wanna be your dream come true

'Cause I don't know just what I've found
I don't know my sky from ground
I don't know where I'm going to
I don't know about you

I'll be the rain falling on your fire escape
And I may not be the man you want me to
I can be myself, how 'bout you

I'll be the rain falling on your fire escape
And I may not be the man you want me to
I can be myself, how 'bout you?
I can be myself, how 'bout you?
I can be myself
How 'bout you?

she flies from a blinding light
and spirals to my heart
i try to find my mind
but don't know where to start

won't ever
can't ever find my sanity
won't ever
can't ever 'til i hear
her calling for me

she knows that, she knows that
she knows that, she knows that
she knows that side of me
can't help it, can't help it
can't help it, can't help it
can't help that side of me
just a little more, just a little more
just until i know what i'm feeling
just a little more, just a little more to find my sanity

i'm lost in a thousand nights
but sun shines at my feet
i'd walk through a thousands fires
and next to me she'd be

won't ever
can't ever find my sanity
won't ever
can't ever til i hear
her calling for me

she knows that, she knows that
she knows that, she knows that
she knows that side of me
can't help it, can't help it
can't help it, can't help it
can't help that side of me
just a little more, just a little more
just until i know what i'm feeling
just a little more, just a little more to find my sanity

she knows that side
she's calling back for me
i've lost my mind
i'd never believed

she knows that side
she's calling back for me
i lost my mind
til she's calling for me

she's calling for me
she's calling for me
she's calling for me

she knows that, she knows that
she knows that, she knows that
she knows that side of me
i can't help it, can't help it
i can't help it, can't help it
i can't help it that side of me
just a little more, just a little more
just until i know what i'm feeling
just a little more, just a little more to find my sanity

she knows that, she knows that (repeat to fade)